Showing posts with label see red. Show all posts
Showing posts with label see red. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Obfuscation


You never asked-
but I like the cool honesty
that the steel blue fractured light
throws against the walls of an empty room.

Your preference of warmth
makes me flush,
a bit hot
and rash.

As you know,
astrophysicists and amateur astronomers
use both spectrums
to learn about light
and discover new worlds
neither real blue nor red.

Me-I liked to walk in the woods in the dark
just to see or feel
my way.

I also rested in my closed
toy chest, inside the closet
with the bones and Barbie heads,
with my eyes closed tight-
yet could still see red.

You see,
I find
the absence of light briskly
more welcoming to me,
but it is just tepid white to you
I thought.

Painting By Abbott Handerson Thayer (Princeton University Art Museum) [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons.

Friday, April 15, 2016

Deep breathing lessons


In a fit of (out)rage-
directed at self-
via repeat rejections
and the subsequent dejection
received-
I could only see (in the) red.
The message was loud and clear, I fear
they all might be right and
I almost entertained
a harebrained
nasty notion, deranged desperate thought
that I could spend my days in drudgery
earning regular poor money
working for someone else’s benefit(s)-
Then I remembered 
that doesn’t work-for me
though it would make some others
(beyond) happy-it'd be
at my expense,hence,  I’d be in debt, 
lacking value, 
inherently strangled spiritually.
And after a moment of light
reflection-
I can now breathe
asymptomatically.




Image of painting by Frederick Sandys, Love's shadow, 1867 [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons.



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